Heat Pockets of the Mind

It’s pitch black as we ascend toward the faint halo outlining the ridge against the dark sky. We are like moths, though the light comes neither from the moon nor from a candle. The light is Los Angeles, and the ridge—the forefront of the San Gabriel Mountains—shelters us now from its depressing beauty. Los Angeles, a luminous malignancy on the night side of Earth.

We cover a few switchbacks, and the ridge grows a crown of antennas. Mount Wilson looms closer. Usually home of the historic observatory, tonight it’s transformed into an aid station where we’ll be able to pause and breathe again. I picture giant moths clinging to the far side of the mountain. For now, all we see are their antennae, but at any moment they could take flight, eclipsing the stars. I want to share the image with the runner I’m pacing, but instead I stumble into a linguistic discovery: in English, unlike in Polish, the word for the insect appendages is the same as the word for transmission devices.

We drop into a narrow ravine and the sky disappears. On the downhill we move faster, and suddenly I sense the space around us is textured not by light but by heat-pockets of warmth and chill arranged invisibly in the dark. I say it aloud to distract my companion from the pain of his eightieth mile: “I wonder what creates these thermal pockets.” Then I let myself spiral into hypotheses—different rocks holding heat with different inertia, vegetation releasing moisture at uneven rates, rugged terrain shaping subtle air flows. Another thought strikes me: in this darkness, with so little visual input, my brain has begun to map the terrain through temperature gradients. Until I voiced it, this heat-topography had been my working model of the space around me. I know it must diverge wildly from the actual ridges and gullies, but the moving body insists on some kind of map, so the mind supplies one. I recall birds that ride convection currents to soar higher, and I imagine their brains generating models of space from both thermal and visual cues—far more precise than mine.

The mountains and the darkness dissolve. I am standing in a vast, empty parking lot in daytime Los Angeles. It’s the usual scorching August, the heat spread evenly across the gray concrete like melted butter. Lost in recollections of the night run, I walk as Prelude No. 4 in E-flat minor by Scriabin seeps from my earbuds. Something uncanny happens: as the first bars sound, my brain synesthetically conjures a moving pocket of warmth, as if music itself had generated a spatial heat map around me. At first I take it as metaphor, a poetic costume draped over a banal experience. But no—it feels more like a sensation than a thought. I remember the San Gabriel heat-pockets and wonder if the same neural circuitry is at work, building topographies from whatever cues are available. This time, the cue is… music. I stop analyzing and just enjoy the strange ways of the mind.

I get to my car and start driving. As I sit still, the world behind the windshield unspools. Once again I marvel at the brain as a world-generator. Then I turn up the AC, because the heat-pocket I just got into is way too real. 

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